ALISON! ALISON! ALISON! ALISON! I personally think that writing my own name in capitals is slightly more fun then simply writing it; this way it looks like I’m yelling already. I’m a proud Australian, even though I don’t own an Australian flag, or like the beach, or like BBQ’s, or the sun, or lamingtons. You’ll be fooled by my appearance and shocked by my age; if I had a dollar for every time someone gasped at my actual age I would be fucking rolling in it. I like to learn new things; learning is growth, and growth brings me one step closer to my future. I can’t wait to grow up; I’ve already planned out half my life. I know what I want out of life and I’m going push myself until I get exactly what I want, that’s a lot more then most other people my age can say. All of my closest friends are older; I find comfort in ones who I can have proper, intelligent conversations with. I do act very mature for my age majority of the time, but I always have my moments when I act my true age. My mother tells me that I’m 15 going on 30. I try my best to be strong for the people around me; it’s very often that I find myself trying to help my friends with their own personal problems. I may not have many close friends, but for the ones that I have I do my best to look after. There are a few people in the world who I would literally take a bullet for, and would do anything to make them smile. I have my moments when I can be a cold hearted bitch, but who doesn’t? I obsess over weird things; whether it is bands, clothing, or my long time favourite YuGiOh It takes a lot to piss me off, so you know when I’m really mad, or if I hold a prolonging grudge against you, it means you must have done something to really drive me up the wall. I don’t hate anyone, I just don’t like a lot of people; but I do have my reasons for not liking them. I love to write, I’ve currently taken up blogging to try and keep my life in check so that one day when I’m old, I’ll be able to look back and read what I valued as I was growing up. I know I’m not perfect, but I like who I am most of the time. I value intelligence, the ability to speak ones mind, inner beauty, outer beauty, nobility, honestly, practical skill, etc. I have certain beliefs; I do believe in God in a way, but I know for sure that I believe in guardian angels, I should know, I have one. I’m really loud at times, I don’t cry a lot, I love changing the colour of my hair, and I know I’ll be deaf by the time I’m 50.
BOB!
I am a proud concert junkie; nothing makes me happier then going to a show. I love everything about a gig, the sound of the band, the roar of the crowd, the pain of the mosh, the pain in your neck after lining up all day, and disgustingly enough I even don’t mind the smell of other peoples sweat dripping from your clothes. If you want to get through to me, I suggest doing it through music. I can’t begin to explain how important music is to me; it’s what I want to do with my life, for the rest of my life. I’m one of those people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world; I’m about making an impact, and doing something with my future that I’ll be proud of. I want people to look up to me in the future, I want to inspire thousands, I want to save lives; I will not stop until I reach my dreams. I look up to musicians; a select few in particular. My male role model is Bob Bryar and I look up to him in so many ways. He inspires me everyday. I don’t know where I would be without him. He has a heart of gold and I’ll do everything in my power to help everyone understand that. He is the nicest man I've ever met. On two occasions we've met, and both those two occasions where organized by himself. Don't ask me why Bob invited myself and my friends backstage on those two nights, because I won't ever say much about it. I was amazingly lucky and I have no fucking idea how it ever happened. He was the first person who ever went out of their way to try and meet me; he wanted to meet me. I could never thank this man enough for what he did. I didn't deserve this, I just got lucky. I will meet him again one day and things will be different next time; I will help him understand how much I look up to him, and I will help him see how amazingly grateful I am. I will look up to him no matter what he decides to do with his life. To me he isn’t just a man, he’s a hero. Thousands of My Chemical Romance fans can say that their music has helped them through rough times; how many can say that because of Bob Bryar, My Chemical Romance where literally fucking there to help you through a rough time? "I'm glad this is happening. When I first found out, I was blown away. I was really concerned about you and I just wanted to do what I could to try and help you out. " – Bob Bryar.
Green Day & MyChem
These eight men have done more for me then anyone else in the world has. Even though I have yet to meet a few of them, I will one day. I honestly can’t and don’t want to imagine how much these two bands, and these eight men mean to me; as a whole, and as individuals. I could give hour long speeches on their ability to change lives. I would line up for hours on end in the pouring rain to just get a glimpse at these amazing men. They are just normal people; normal people who have done amazing things with their lives. They have inspired me to want a better future, to want everything they have. I want to change the world because of them. They have the ability to make me laugh, and cry without even being in the same room as I. Their music has changed me for the better and I couldn’t ever be more thankful for that. I value so many things in life because of them. Maybe one day I won’t just be a fan, I’ll be a friend; I’ll make something of myself, and maybe one day you’ll be the ones who want to meet me. Maybe you’ll buy my album, you’ll read my work, you’ll come to my show, or maybe you’ll just take a moment to think about me. Hopefully I’ll get to let you all know how much you mean to me one day. Thank you for changing my life. "It's a proven fact that music can change people." - Billie Joe Armstrong.
heroes.
Matt: I may have not known you long, but I know for a fact that the time I spent talking to you was the most amazing time of my life. I don’t think I’ve ever looked up to someone as much as I look up to you Matt. You were the strongest guy I ever knew, and even at the point of breaking you never stopped. I wish you were still here to look after me because sometimes I feel like I need your guidance more then anything. You were the one person I never got to save Matt, but you saved me in so many ways. You’re the reason that I am who I am, the reason I want what I want. I know that you’re above watching over me and I’ll love you forever. Sometime its almost as if I can feel you right next to me. I don't care what anyone else says, Konstantine will always be our song. It was never easy, no one ever hurt me like you did, we just needed a little more room to live, but I'll always be your Konstantine.I promise to live out the dreams that you never got to live out and I'll cling to your words forever. "Everything takes time." - Matthew R.I.P.
Jade: You’re my best friend, even if you do live half way across the world. You’ve been strong through everything you’ve unfortunately had to go through. I know that I can pretty much tell you anything because you’ll never judge me, you’ll fucking be right there by my side. You’re beautiful; never doubt that, you’re fucking amazing; never think anything different. I look up to you in so many ways, even if you don’t think that you deserve it. You’ll never know how much I care about you. You always make me laugh, and I think that you’re the best friend I always wanted, the best friend who’d I get their name tattooed on my skin because they’ve made my life better in so many ways. I love you girl, never forget it.
Jayde:
You’re one of my closest friends; one of my best friends. You never cease to amaze me and I hope that never changes. You always find a way to make me laugh no matter what kind of mood I’m in. I know you’ll listen to my ranting no matter what. I hope that one day I’ll be able to help you make your dreams come true. I’ll care about you no matter what you decide to do with you’re life. I don't know what I'd do without you. I hope we stay friends for a fucking long time because right now its hard to remember what life was like before you. Out of all the amazing things that 2007 has brought me, your friendship is one of the best things I’ve received.
Dan Whitesides - I've been lucky enough to meet this man twice. On both those occasions he took photos, talked, and signed everything that was given to him by the fans around him. It is only as of recent that I look up to him as much as I do. I told him that bands like The Used, make me sure of what I wanted to do with my life, and in response to that he gave me a speech on making my dreams come true. "Never give up, keep fucking trying. I hope, that one day you'll make your dreams come true." Thank you Dan. You've given me that push that I needed to keep trying. Thank you, for what you've done for the RC, my friends, and me.
Music.
green day. my chemical romance. the used. fall out boy. paramore. rise against. kisschasy. cute is what we aim for. blink 182. dashboard confessional. flyleaf. hellogoodbye. jack's mannequin. linkin park. the living end. matchbox twenty. motion city soundtrack. nickelback. panic! at the disco. the red jumpsuit apparatus. simple plan. taking back sunday. yellowcard. sum 41. etc.
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